Suck

My father is dying of cancer.
It looks as if he has less than a year to live.
The treatments have mostly all been tried. All have had an effect, however the lymphoma has just come back with all of the associated side effects from the chemo / radioimmuneology treatments.
There is one last treatment, but according to statistics it has a 5% success rate.
Things are looking grim indeed.

I'm not sure if I can hold it together.